I think it was positive overall?

I did it. Managed the CTC York Rally. Got a train to Leeds and cycled the last 25 miles or so. Managed to arrive about 5 minutes after the rain started!!!!! Pitched up and brewed coffee sitting and feeling pleased that I had made it. Dad arrived later and that was great as he reckons it's the last time he'll be able to do York. Sad but probably true. I met a few people that I knew from Forums, Clubs, Previous meeting etc and had some good chatting. Particular thanks to one fo the people, he knows who he is, that also had brain injuries and he was a help to me, whether he realised it or not. Had a walk to a local pub in the evening and socialised a bit, again something I am out of the habit of. Didn't drink alcohol as the recent drug changes make that a VERY bad thing to try as I found out at Rutland a few weeks ago. I was booked to come home on the Trains from Leeds on Sundal afternmoon so it was all in place and safe as far as I was concerned. Then I got a memory of how I used to travel years ago. Decide where you want to be and figure out how to get there. With that in mind I left the Rally on Saturday afternoon and rode to get some drugs as I had ran out of a few and my head was bad. Then just rolled up at the station with no cycle reservation and the thought that the worst scenario was that I would have to find a place to stay for the night of they wouldn't let the bike on due to others being there first. It went as smooth as silk and I am happier that I came home early the way I did than if I had stayed until Sunday and done the pre planned journey. First "Off the Cuff" thing I have done in years without a safety net and it felt good.
Great to meet the people, great to see York again and I hope next year I might even go on from the Rally for a few days, over the Humber bridge etc.
Might sound a bit dodgy but I feel happy at the way it alol went and I hope it has givenj me the courage to try a few more bits and pieces.

Feeling a bit frustrated!

One of the biggest problem with brain injuries is that they are "Hidden Disabilities" in a lot of ways. Many people think there's nothing wrong other than a bit of a limp, even though there are times I can hardly move myself to walk at all. I had a weekend away cycle camping in late May and I think there was a bit of that there. One of the good people that turned up had a very noticeable problem with his legs and it kind of put me on the defensive, as if I had to justify myself, so I hope I wasn't too funny with the others at the meet as they were all good people and I hope to meet many of them again. The mental health is another problem altogether. I want to do so much but depression and lack of confidence these days stops me from trying even little things. The drugs do help in some ways but not all the time and I can come across as being very "I want to be alone" sometimes.
Themain point of this post is to apologise to the people at the Tramp/ Fell club meet if I wasn't excactly scintilating company and to say please don't shy away from me.