Feeling relief?
The Bankruptcy petition went through on the 1st May and I walked out of the court feeling that I had either made a really positive move or a really negative one, not sure which.
Since then I realise that it is all Out of my Control now so I can't screw things up anymore than I did before and that gives some form of relief. I had the interview with the official receivers examiner and she helped to put me at ease, good and professional. I still have the fear that I could be given a restriction order that could last for up to 15 years but even that would be better than the 28 years of paying to a debt management company as the situation was.
I've stopped and started and stopped and started again with the smoking. Latest one is that I finished my last cigarette at 11-44am on the 24th May 2008 and after 35 hours I haven't had another one yet. I feel pretty out of my head with it all but I understand that a lot of my addiction is Psychological so I have to learn a new way of life. I had a really bad time of it with the diet, put more weight on and peaked at 20 stones and 6 pounds, the heaviest I've ever been! I've put myself in Unclespuggers hands totally with the diet. If he doesn't tell me to eat it, I don't eat it and I MUST eat what he tells me to. Habits as ingrained as the food and smoking are going to be hard to change but I am determined to make it right this year.
I've not done any long rides on the Trike yet but have kept quite a few small rides going. 12 to 18 milers maybe three times a week so I am feeling a little more confident to start trying futrher afield again. It's only three years or so back that I was doing 800 mile months regularly.
I've booked myself in to the York CTC (Cycling) rally in late June and I will try and ride both ways and camp en route. It will be 6 nights away from home and without the ability to crawl into my shell but I want to do it and will have a go.
Unclespuggers had his Gastric bypass surgery about 2 months ago and has lost over 7 stones in that time, pretty amazing amount! He is having problems though as he can't eat anything without feeling bloated and nauseous. The actual amount he is supposed to eat is tiny and it makes it hard to find food in small enough portions. He would go back and reverse the deed if he could. He is seeing the Surgeon on Tuesday of next week and I hope they tell him that something is not right and that there is a way of fixing it. He can't go on like he is now as it is hell for him.
I've shed my whinges for now so thanks for reading and I'll moan again next time.
Since then I realise that it is all Out of my Control now so I can't screw things up anymore than I did before and that gives some form of relief. I had the interview with the official receivers examiner and she helped to put me at ease, good and professional. I still have the fear that I could be given a restriction order that could last for up to 15 years but even that would be better than the 28 years of paying to a debt management company as the situation was.
I've stopped and started and stopped and started again with the smoking. Latest one is that I finished my last cigarette at 11-44am on the 24th May 2008 and after 35 hours I haven't had another one yet. I feel pretty out of my head with it all but I understand that a lot of my addiction is Psychological so I have to learn a new way of life. I had a really bad time of it with the diet, put more weight on and peaked at 20 stones and 6 pounds, the heaviest I've ever been! I've put myself in Unclespuggers hands totally with the diet. If he doesn't tell me to eat it, I don't eat it and I MUST eat what he tells me to. Habits as ingrained as the food and smoking are going to be hard to change but I am determined to make it right this year.
I've not done any long rides on the Trike yet but have kept quite a few small rides going. 12 to 18 milers maybe three times a week so I am feeling a little more confident to start trying futrher afield again. It's only three years or so back that I was doing 800 mile months regularly.
I've booked myself in to the York CTC (Cycling) rally in late June and I will try and ride both ways and camp en route. It will be 6 nights away from home and without the ability to crawl into my shell but I want to do it and will have a go.
Unclespuggers had his Gastric bypass surgery about 2 months ago and has lost over 7 stones in that time, pretty amazing amount! He is having problems though as he can't eat anything without feeling bloated and nauseous. The actual amount he is supposed to eat is tiny and it makes it hard to find food in small enough portions. He would go back and reverse the deed if he could. He is seeing the Surgeon on Tuesday of next week and I hope they tell him that something is not right and that there is a way of fixing it. He can't go on like he is now as it is hell for him.
I've shed my whinges for now so thanks for reading and I'll moan again next time.
posted by Pedaldog | 1:11 PM
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